Don't think with your dick.

Okay. I just had to post something about this. It's eating my brains out!

So, le me is studying in a private college, so I know how much money it costs, no? So, I try my best to do the best in everything I do so that the money my parents waste will be worth it.

Imagine my feelings and thoughts when I see someone, anyone, coming to college just to have fun, waste time. GAAAH! Teenagers, Y U NO HAVE BRAIN? Fucking hormones. I was young once, but never that stupid.

And then when you try to give advice, try to talk some sense into them brains, you get nothing but anger from em. Sucks. Fine, have your life go in ruins.

Worth every sweat and tear.

Sooooo..it's the 23rd of April!!

I'm extremely glad the event went well and everyone had a blast. Tiring to the max? Yes. But worth it? Definitely.

We were able to make mini libraries for the kids. Even made cute flowers and butterflies. I knew I had some artsy talent! Well, a teeny tinsy bit lah.

The activities were hectic. The children were, well you can say a bit out of hand. Can't blame them. They have different stories that are absolutely heart breaking.

Speaking of heart breaking stories, there was this one girl, so cute, wearing a neon green tudung. For some reason, she avoided contact with our boys, more like cringed when they touched her. Turns out, her reason was because, she was raped by her own uncle. When she was six. And she's still a little girl now. I can't even begin to imagine what kind of hell she had to go through. Safe to say, I cried on the spot upon hearing her story. There were more.

Some kids had burn marks. Scars. And the way they said it oh so casually, "kana tuang air panas ba ni, bapa saya." was even more heart breaking. My dad would never ever do that to any of us. What kind of dad would do such cruel thing?

Enough. I might bleed my eyes out if I continue on.

So, the food was great. Thank you so much to Culinary Arts and Bakery & Pastry students for their hard work and effort. Not forgetting our lecturers who gave tremendous support, we would've went no where without their guidance.

All in all, I believe it was a success. Looking forward to more charity programs in the future. But after I take a huge ass break. Oh and dye my hair!

The night before.

So, it's the night before our big event. I'm super excited but at the same time, super duper nervous! I sincerely hope tomorrow will go as planned. Please God, no hiccups along the way?

Last Thursday was our first challenge. Pre-launching. Boy was it awesome. We even made it in the paper. Utusan Borneo. I am so going to laminate that article and show it to my kids someday. XD

So, 22nd of April finally is coming. I cannot wait for the 23rd. After that, this weekend, hellooooooo strawberry blonde hair! My hands have been itching so bad ever since I bought that dye color. It's been the one thing that kept me going through all this hectic managing. Dyeing my hair after 4 years.

LOL. the simplest things always give me pleasure.

Chasing my lifelong dream.

I'm dreading the 22nd of April. But I also want it to come so I can be over with this event. Don't get me wrong. I have always wanted to do charity work, but organizing a charity event? Not as easy as it looks.

So, Rumah Kanak-kanak Kota Kinabalu (RKK) is a government owned safe house for abused, neglected and orphaned children. The government takes care of them until they reach 18, which is when they are let go, to live on their own in the big old world.

On one of our trip to RKK for research, we got to know a lot better the stories that these unfortunate kids have. Seriously, whose heart doesn't break when you see a toddler, left by her own mother, being taken care of by strangers? Some are even being tested for HIV. So sad.

Makes me make a double check on all the things that I complaint about in my life when the truth is, I may be one of the luckiest girl in the world.

I just hope what we are trying to do with the donation campaign and all, it helps lessens the burdens faced by these kids. We will never be able to give them a life they wish they had because we're not magicians, but we can help them feel happy and remain positive.

Hopefully when the day comes, all will go as planned and flow smoothly like mango smoothie.

And after that, I will dye my hair blonde. Seriously.