Don't think with your dick.

Okay. I just had to post something about this. It's eating my brains out!

So, le me is studying in a private college, so I know how much money it costs, no? So, I try my best to do the best in everything I do so that the money my parents waste will be worth it.

Imagine my feelings and thoughts when I see someone, anyone, coming to college just to have fun, waste time. GAAAH! Teenagers, Y U NO HAVE BRAIN? Fucking hormones. I was young once, but never that stupid.

And then when you try to give advice, try to talk some sense into them brains, you get nothing but anger from em. Sucks. Fine, have your life go in ruins.

Worth every sweat and tear.

Sooooo..it's the 23rd of April!!

I'm extremely glad the event went well and everyone had a blast. Tiring to the max? Yes. But worth it? Definitely.

We were able to make mini libraries for the kids. Even made cute flowers and butterflies. I knew I had some artsy talent! Well, a teeny tinsy bit lah.

The activities were hectic. The children were, well you can say a bit out of hand. Can't blame them. They have different stories that are absolutely heart breaking.

Speaking of heart breaking stories, there was this one girl, so cute, wearing a neon green tudung. For some reason, she avoided contact with our boys, more like cringed when they touched her. Turns out, her reason was because, she was raped by her own uncle. When she was six. And she's still a little girl now. I can't even begin to imagine what kind of hell she had to go through. Safe to say, I cried on the spot upon hearing her story. There were more.

Some kids had burn marks. Scars. And the way they said it oh so casually, "kana tuang air panas ba ni, bapa saya." was even more heart breaking. My dad would never ever do that to any of us. What kind of dad would do such cruel thing?

Enough. I might bleed my eyes out if I continue on.

So, the food was great. Thank you so much to Culinary Arts and Bakery & Pastry students for their hard work and effort. Not forgetting our lecturers who gave tremendous support, we would've went no where without their guidance.

All in all, I believe it was a success. Looking forward to more charity programs in the future. But after I take a huge ass break. Oh and dye my hair!

The night before.

So, it's the night before our big event. I'm super excited but at the same time, super duper nervous! I sincerely hope tomorrow will go as planned. Please God, no hiccups along the way?

Last Thursday was our first challenge. Pre-launching. Boy was it awesome. We even made it in the paper. Utusan Borneo. I am so going to laminate that article and show it to my kids someday. XD

So, 22nd of April finally is coming. I cannot wait for the 23rd. After that, this weekend, hellooooooo strawberry blonde hair! My hands have been itching so bad ever since I bought that dye color. It's been the one thing that kept me going through all this hectic managing. Dyeing my hair after 4 years.

LOL. the simplest things always give me pleasure.

Chasing my lifelong dream.

I'm dreading the 22nd of April. But I also want it to come so I can be over with this event. Don't get me wrong. I have always wanted to do charity work, but organizing a charity event? Not as easy as it looks.

So, Rumah Kanak-kanak Kota Kinabalu (RKK) is a government owned safe house for abused, neglected and orphaned children. The government takes care of them until they reach 18, which is when they are let go, to live on their own in the big old world.

On one of our trip to RKK for research, we got to know a lot better the stories that these unfortunate kids have. Seriously, whose heart doesn't break when you see a toddler, left by her own mother, being taken care of by strangers? Some are even being tested for HIV. So sad.

Makes me make a double check on all the things that I complaint about in my life when the truth is, I may be one of the luckiest girl in the world.

I just hope what we are trying to do with the donation campaign and all, it helps lessens the burdens faced by these kids. We will never be able to give them a life they wish they had because we're not magicians, but we can help them feel happy and remain positive.

Hopefully when the day comes, all will go as planned and flow smoothly like mango smoothie.

And after that, I will dye my hair blonde. Seriously.

Life is indeed a wheel.

New semester, new event, new headache, new drama. But no new clothes. Danggit life! Y U like wheel? One day I'm up there, today I'm waaaaaaaay down here.

So this semester I'm program director again for a charity event. Yeah, its for a good cause and all, but the stress?? The protocols?? Jeeez man. Makes me wish I wasn't someone people look to when ever they need work to be done.

Ok. So in the beginning what I had in mind was just something small and simple, just to spend time helping kids at the shelter. Then my lecturer went and made it some big charity event on a large scale. Don't get me wrong. Her intentions were great, to make us work even harder.

BUT.....

The lazy bum in me is crying tears of blood.

All that's keeping me going now are the weekends. I go running back home to Tambunan and spend hours upon hours sleeping in my comfy bed, never wanting to get up. Oh and Ojakgyo Brothers. But even THAT show's going to be over. 2 episodes left!:(

So now, I'm scrambling around looking for replacement drugs. I'm fast running out of cracks! Dunno what will I do next to release all the tension in mu head before we have scrambled brain. All I can do now is, wish it was 22nd of April already. Btw, its a day after the charity event.

Oh Hunger Games come fast!

Hey 1st love.

Currently feeling grateful for many many things in my life.

Who am I kidding.

Right now I'm just happy that I got book vouchers worth RM200, a gift (or bribe) from Najib to students of the higher learning institutes of Malaysia. Book shopping! My inner nerd is about to die from excitement.

And, it came just in time for the election. Wow, great PR move. I should learn a thing or two from this.

Speaking of PR, I got my Cutlip&Center's book on Effective Public Relations. Supposedly, its THE textbook for all things PR, and comes in handy for those wanting a career in this industry. And so far, got to say, I'm loving what I'm reading.

Never have I ever dreamed of the day where I'll be saying I love reading textbooks. Its a miracle.

Anyhow, I'm in my 5th semester, 3 more to go. Time to huff and puff like a sprinter but at the same time, enjoy the view like a traveler backpacking around the world.

Now, off to the bookstore! Cannot wait to browse around slowly, looking for books. Ah my love. I'm so excited, I'm about to shit my pants ;)

Moments like these.

Tonight was sort of a nice one. Mum and Dad had some people over for some drinks, so it was quite noisy for a while. Dad obviously got drunk, but nothing that we can't handle. I'm a pro when it comes to handling him. Years of practice :)

Surprisingly, the fun part started after the guests have left.

My brother in-law got me and my sisters together downstairs for some hanging out time. Lil bro got sleepy real early tonight. Still getting use to having a bro-in-law in the house, as much as I am getting use to seeing and watching my sister's belly get bigger by the day. Oh dear God, I hope its a boy :)

The in-law gets really chatty and witty whenever he gets a bit intoxicated, so he made us join his impromptu karaoke competition. It was HILARIOUS.

And surprisingly, I won 1st place. Beat out lil miss Diva for the coveted spot. AND won a pack of Maggie and RM3. Cash.

My first victory in singing. #iknowitspatheticbutjustbearwithmehere:)

All in all, it was a nice gathering. Even just among me and the sibs plus bro-in-law. Dad joined in a bit later after he got up from his deep slumber. Typical Dad.

Reminds me why I feel so blessed being born into this family. Really can't wait for the arrival of the little one. It's gonna be like sunshine coming down from the sky, descending into our humble home when that little one arrives.

Oh little tyke, you have no idea what family you're getting into. We are so going to suffocate you with love!

Here's one for the family. Cheers!