Sunday, October 24, 2010

hollow me.

childhood memories are ones that i treasure most.

the bad, the good, the awesome, and everything else. its only sad that some of these memories can only be triggered to remember during times like this.

after almost 2 years of suffering, my grandpa finally left us. and its bittersweet.

sweet because, finally death has come to end his suffering. he is in a better place now.

bitter because, i keep questioning myself, have i done enough to help ease his pain? have i been a good grand daughter to him? what could i have done?

and i wish that i had spent more time with him than i did.

his funeral, was a tear fest. not a single eye was left dry. even the toughest men in our family cried like babies. eye bags, headaches, dehydration.

there's a huge void in our hearts now and no one, nothing in this world will be able to fill that up. it will always be empty from now on.

there's so much more i want to say, to vent out but i can't access my mind right now.

rest in peace aki purutan. thank you for all those lovely childhood memories. i will treasure them for the rest of my life.

until we meet again.

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