oh hell yeah!

finally i can wear sunglasses! (in my case, tinted specs, keke)

thanks mom and dad!

pampered brat!

i love going to salons! especially an old-school salon that i have been going to even before i was born. hah!

so it's almost Christmas, more than enough reason to get my hair retouched :) aaaah i love makeovers!

so i'm letting the pictures do all the talking, ciao bella!

BTW, yes that's a skirt i'm wearing, and it's vintage even, got it from my mama.

i feel them slipping through my fingers.

you know when we were younger when we think "this relationship is going to last a lifetime and never change". yeah, i had one of those too.

well, guess what? no relationship last. some inevitably got to end, while some try to continue, losing the sparks it use to have and some just basically change and doesn't feel the way it use to feel anymore.

it's sad to admit that. but one or more relationships in my life are starting to feel that way. i don't know if its just me being overly sensitive (which i am) and sentimental (i always am), but i can feel them slipping through my fingers.

hey, what can i say, i'm the kind of girl that needs reassurance and needs to be told 'i love you' every single day. thou i can never promise i would show the vulnerable side of me to everyone by doing the same (hehe) cause i'm much too macho.

beautifully eerie

from the trailer and movie reviews i read, this one will for sure blow my mind away. it's a love story plus science fiction plus beautiful cinematography, everything i love in a movie.

plus one thing i love most, cute guys!

so, i'm gonna search high and low for the dvd, i don't care what it takes, i will get my chubby hands on you!

Andrew Garfield

i love you!

so, latest obsession dude, meet Mr. Andrew Garfield.

as you can see, mucho hotness!

saw him on the social network, but i already knew of him from way back. he's the new mr. spidey btw!

also there's this movie "never let me go" where he acted alongside carey mulligan (cute!) and keira knightley (hot!) and i just have have have to watch it!

it's illegal to be this hot Mr. Garfield!:)

owh and did i tell you he's BFF with Robert Pattinson? talk about getting a package deal, woot woot!

tis the season to be....

jolly?sad?happy?depressed?

whatever suits you.

me? i'll go with Switzerland, neutral i mean. There's too much going on with my life currently and i don't know what to feel, or even think.

i love Christmas. but i miss the sweet innocence of my childhood where calendars are crossed each day, counting down till the 25th. being grown up is not as fun as i imagined it would be.

my oh my, it has been a year. and my oh my, so much has changed in this short year.

still,i'm no spoiled brat!

yes yes yes!

i will be getting a car.

best Christmas gift ever from my parents.:)

i'm just a girl

who gets giddy at the sight of a hot new hottie at college, would die from starvation just to buy that one perfect bag at megalong (signed,sealed,bought!) and loves loves loves new clothes.

hehe.

ouh and currently obsessed with light blue jeans color. not the jeans, but the color.it rocks my world!

my world and i

due the the current events happening in my real life, i have been actively participating in my made up life of perfect fantasy.

and it includes day dreaming about lee seunggi and living in a scooby doo movie. that dog have all the luck.

finished watching my girlfriend is a gumiho (@ rm15.90 for the whole series!can i get a woot woot!) which made me love seunggi-sshi even moooore.and shin min-ah is totally gorgeous btw.*jealous*

movie marathon with garfield, cat in the hat and scoobert@scooby doo. and scott pilgrim is an awesome movie.gonna watch charlie st.cloud next, after i attend business class*sigh*.can't wait!

owh and also studying and making assignments*cough*.

call me a multi-tasker.tee-hee;)

current song;

LIKE A G6 by Far East Movement!

owh and,

Fox rain by Lee Sun Hee;)

girl i miss you!

seriously.

harry potter and breaking dawn won't feel the same without you watching it.

and i'm praying hard you will get through your last semester with flying colors;)

why bother

please explain why.please please?

why is it so easy for you to go back on your words?it hurts a gazillion tons and at times i just can't take it i almost consider suicide (forgive me Lord!) but you seem like you don't care even one tiny bit.

why?

but i know you won't answer because you're ignorant.always have been.and so i will go numb.

i choose to go numb.cause then i won't feel the pain any longer.

so don't blame me for making my heart icy cold.you made me that way.

i wish

that i could live in a picture perfect world of happiness.

but blimey, wishes are as logical as unicorns and flying fairies.

seriously, five year olds have the best life ever.

baby i love you!

i need fireworks!

katy perry please ignite my spark like a.s.a.p!

I died,went to heaven and begged God to let me live again so i can watch the movie next year.

isle esme!

so,in anticipation of the first part of the last installment of the Harry Potter movie, i recently watched Order of The Phoenix and Half Blood Prince (and boy do i still cry my ass off every time i see Dumbledore fall from that tower and die,*sobs*) again.

one thing kinda bothered me.

why is it that everything i read from Harry Potter seems to be transformed visually just like how i imagined it would be whereas with Twilight they just...don't?

i really really hope Breaking Dawn won't disappoint.

just saw pictures from the Breaking dawn set in Brazil, and gotta say, Isle Esme is perfect!

and that honeymoon scene better follow every single word from the book.

EVERY SINGLE WORD!

not expiring any time soon.

midterms,assignments,headaches.

so i'm going to type about something thats totally unrelated to those words. what makes a person holy in the eyes of the Lord?

being actively active with church activities?

i know a few people who are,and also very active in the opposite of church activities.*winks*

i go to church only on Sunday, and its countable,so what am i through the eyes of God? believe me, i pray.hard.

before eating,before sleeping and even before crapping i pray.is that enough?

i guess one will only know if all those are enough in the end when the time comes for us to say goodbye to this world.

but just so You know, i may not be active with church activities, but my faith in You will always be activated.

yes YOU,my one true love!

amen.

don't forget

we had it all,

we were just about to fall even more in love.

but somewhere we went wrong,

we were once so strong.

our love is like a song,

you can't forget it.

memories triggered by a diary of my once precious love.

cinta mati~

tolong laa.

be realistic people.

i wish i was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

in 77 and 69 revolution was in the air

i was born too late into a world that doesn't care

oh i wish i was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair.

When the head of state didn't play guitar
Not everybody drove a car
When music really mattered and when radio was king
When accountants didn't have control
And the media couldn't buy your soul
And computers were still scary and we didn't know everything

in 77 and 69 revolution was in the air

i was born too late into a world that doesn't care

oh i wish i was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair.

When pop stars still remained a myth
And ignorance could still be bliss
And when god saved the queen she turned a whiter shade of pale
My mom and dad were in their teens
And anarchy was still a dream
And the only way to stay in touch was a letter in the mail

in 77 and 69 revolution was in the air

i was born too late into a world that doesn't care

oh i wish i was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair.

When record shops were still on top
And vinyl was all that they stocked
And the super info highway was still drifting out in space
Kids were wearing hand me downs
And playing games meant kick arounds
And footballers still had long hair and dirt across their face

in 77 and 69 revolution was in the air

i was born too late into a world that doesn't care

oh i wish i was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair.

hollow me.

childhood memories are ones that i treasure most.

the bad, the good, the awesome, and everything else. its only sad that some of these memories can only be triggered to remember during times like this.

after almost 2 years of suffering, my grandpa finally left us. and its bittersweet.

sweet because, finally death has come to end his suffering. he is in a better place now.

bitter because, i keep questioning myself, have i done enough to help ease his pain? have i been a good grand daughter to him? what could i have done?

and i wish that i had spent more time with him than i did.

his funeral, was a tear fest. not a single eye was left dry. even the toughest men in our family cried like babies. eye bags, headaches, dehydration.

there's a huge void in our hearts now and no one, nothing in this world will be able to fill that up. it will always be empty from now on.

there's so much more i want to say, to vent out but i can't access my mind right now.

rest in peace aki purutan. thank you for all those lovely childhood memories. i will treasure them for the rest of my life.

until we meet again.

mockingjay

I wake screaming from nightmares of mutts and lost children. But his arm are there to comfort me.

and eventually his lips.

On the night i feel that thing again, the hunger that overtook me on the beach, I know this would have happened anyway. That what i need to survive is not Gale's fire, kindled with rage and hatred. I have plenty of fire myself. What i need is the dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again. And only Peeta can give me that.

So after, when he whispers, "you love me. Real or not real?"

I tell him,"Real."

the Hunger games

there was this book that my little sister introduced to me a few months ago. it was titled the hunger games: catching fire.

it was the second book from a trilogy.

i was madly, deeply and irrevocably in love with the book. and as i frantically search for the third and last installment of the trilogy, i got news that it was going to be made into a movie.

and i was SCREAMING.

so now i just got off from borders.com, ordered Mockingjay, the last book. and i can't wait for it to come!

this is good, i mean what better way to end my edward and bella obsession with peeta and katniss?

the movie better do justice to the books!

and all this is thanks to my little sister who borrowed that one book from the school library.

Suzanne Collins, welcome to my list of favourite female author of all times! and yes,my list also includes Stephanie Meyer and J.K Rowlings.

restarting

my obsession with the twilight saga!

okay so, breaking dawn filming is already commencing and i so cannot wait for the on-set pictures to come out crawling from the internet cause i'm so gonna be ooing and aahing and awwwing and omgsohoting over those pictures.

breathe teng breathe!

who am i kidding miki?

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! i cannot wait any longer!

the return of robsessed girl! or make that robstensessed ;)

i am not

a business minded person.

as much as i hate maths,i hate doing business even more!

and now i have to think like a businessman for some compulsory subject.argh!okay i'm not complaining,i'm just expressing my utter disgust for this subject.

the end.

rindu sama kalian

thank you

feeling nostalgic.

i saw pictures of my friends today and they look closer than ever.i really miss them :(

come to think of it, meeting them played a huge part as to who i am today.seeing a different side of life from them really made me who i am now.

confident and not afraid of being myself.

seriously,i miss you guys and i just know someday we'll meet again :)

replays

you know that one song that sounds so ordinary at first but as you listen to it again and again it starts to grow on you and eventually gets stuck in your head?

*inhale oxygen*

yeah,i have one currently.

thou i promised myself never to get obsessed with songs sang by tween stars (except taylor swift), this one feels so light and airy and makes me feel like there is hope for me in this world (love department wise la) and it so doesn't sound like any of that miley-i-can't-be-tamed crap.

when i'm kissing you my senses come alive

suddenly the world consists of pink cotton candies and fluffy puppy dogs.

paramore:(

one of the suckiest thing ever in my short life.

why is it that when i was living there they didn't come but now that i'm no where near KL, they suddenly come for a concert?

questions that i'll never be able to answer.

nut job

thank you white walls of UA2.for turning me crazy!and blocking my mind.

i can't even think of how to start doing a simple assignment.

writer's block?hah~

what's wrong with the world mama?

how the fuck do i know.

your single personality

"i'm happy and content"

who you are:

you're the epitome of balance with a good mix of family,BFFs,activities and even time for yourself. You're neither looking nor have you found any guy that catches your eyes, cuz you know you're fine with or without one.

just walk away

you know the feeling you get after you pay for this amazing dress you just happen to walk by in the mall?

yeah,that feeling.

guess what,i found out yesterday about an even better feeling.

this one you get after walking away from that dress,deciding not to buy it. later on in the bus,i felt really really awesome and proud of myself for not giving in to temptation!

here's to hoping i'll be strong enough to resist next time!

over the sea

some people get all the luck.

well,some that i know are very deserving of their luck.they went through a lot to get where they're at now.

but still,jealousy means you're only human.

and i'm nothing but human.

zombies

i hate em~

zombieland or resident evil or whatever,if you're a walking corpse,i hate you.

and when i get zombie related nightmares,my morning will not be so good cause then i'll be plotting ways of how to save me and my family from being eaten.

yeah i know,sucks to be me.

happy Sunday everyone.

;'(

feeling distant with a few people.but i still love them no matter what.

the way i am

when i see your face

there's not a thing that i would change

cause you're amazing

just the way you are

and when you smile

the whole world stops and stares for awhile

cause girl you're amazing

just the way you are.

the way you are.

adorable!

is it possible for people to die from overdosing on cuteness?

i think YES.

comfort zone

i love anything and everything vintage.

call me old school but a smelly old blanket from my childhood screams comfort all over it.how i wish life is so much simpler.

back then,it was.

family and funerals

how are we suppose to feel when the reason behind a family gathering is a funeral?

while its always a happy occasion when meeting beloved uncles and aunts and lovely little monsters,a funeral is quite the opposite.

we had just that this week.

farewell aki ipin.

may your soul rest among the lovely heavenly clouds above and please keep watching over us.

no one can get over a tragic death like that in a few days.and yes,it was a brutal death.want to know more?

just google 'police accident at batu 10 sandakan'.

fare thy well.

killer rays

i'm scared of the sun nowadays.whenever i'm under it directly,i itch.

scary scary.

what is to become of us humans in the near future?

there's always a BUT

okay,i love going to class.it's my only purpose in life nowadays but....

new campus is in the middle of nowhere and KK is so so hot!

but maybe...it's a blessing in disguise:)

no CP means no shopping,no shopping means no need to waste money on that gorgeous dress that just happen to caught my eyes while i'm window shopping.

sigh*

life is full of BUTS.(lol)

beginnings

new day new beginning.

yeah right.

nothing always works the way you want it.that is up to a greater power.

and sometimes that sucks.trust me i know.

but you gotta have faith in that greater power,He always have something up His sleeve that will surprise you.

W%&*^#$

holding on to every bit of sanity left in my world.

gonna live my life the way i want to.

please let me do so!

me time

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giving myself a chance of fun by taking some selca pictures.i'm totally in love with myself.

yes,i'm a self lover.

who else will if not me?lets drown in the rhythm of love!

perfect imperfections

dear people (you know who you are)

yes,my family consists of a dr.jekyll&mr.hyde, a wig lover, an engaged younger sister, kpop addicts and a game loving monkey.

is your family perfect?...yeah,thought so.

my family is far from flawless but thats why i love them.

so you,you and you and YOU can stop gossiping about other people and start thinking of how to overcome global warming or repent before 2012 comes.

so please, SHUT UP AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN FAMILY.

thank you.

no exception yet

when i was younger i saw

my daddy cry and curse at the wind

he broke his own heart and i watched

as he tried to reassemble it.

and my momma swore that she would

never let herself forget.

and that was the day

that i promised i'd never sing of love

if it does not exist.

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back on track

just fyi ~

i've reunited with my laptop and got a new broadband.

safe to say,i'm back in bussiness babies!

i love

when it rains at night. helps me sleep easier and so comfy the feeling.

like the rain is here to wipe away all my trouble through my dreams.

emotional

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i'm content with loneliness.

if partnerships only brings sadness,tears,hurt and anger,then i'll pass on that.

for now.

and people question my sanity for being in love with my imaginations.one main reason i love them:-

~they will never hurt me.

besides,having them is so much fun sometimes i wish on airplanes for it to come true.

(owh and yeah,i'm also crazy for paramore, hence the quotes)

crazy days

hey you~

yeah, YOU.

thank you for making the days of our lives as crazy as it is.but just so you know, you ain't shit without your crew!

and for the record, we love you but sometimes you're a real pain in the ass.

and I Quote

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if i could draw God, i would draw Him holding an eraser.

coolness

i could just die of cuteness~

a never ending war

LOLs

merdeka?

what is up with today's society huh?

we say we're all grown up in terms of modernizing our country.we have pride in saying we're a melting pot that lives in harmony.

but why are certain issues still a big deal?

sometimes i'm just so sick,so over this,all i wanna do is take my whole family and migrate to Australia.maybe someday i will~

right now all i can say is OH MY GOD people.omg.

i CAN be tamed

as i grow older each day, the way i see life gets simpler.

hence,the simple blog design.

as long as it feels and looks comfortable,i'm all for it.and i've been thinking this way not just for my blog,also in terms of clothing and the way i approach life in general.

sort of like..leave me be with my own life because i won't interfere with yours.

wow~i sound really boring.but i guess thats me now.

i'm so over being the angry-rebel-teenager.been through that phase,so now i'm moving on!

yeah for the boring me!

(but don't get me wrong,i still know how to have fun~;P)

i've just been tamed by time.

another one!

here we go again with my obsessions.haha

i'm really a sucker when it comes to the tall-cute-dorky type.and the latest one,aaaargh.so sweet and innocent looking!

should i type his name in?maybe i should,but i'll keep that a secret for now.hehe.

i totally love him!no other for me.(for now:P)

moments like this i love

;;;;;;;;;;;

currently laughing my ass of.. :D!

dady is singing karaoke, it's a Broery Marantika song i think.

you're OFF-KEY dad,and the music is running faster than you.

hahahahaha.

but still,it's kinda a relief knowing i'm not the worst singer in the family.:P

bangs bangs bangs!

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i just wanted to document this day.since it's 31st August and all~

i have bangs!

i've never had bangs like these my whole life.it feels nice trying something new once in a while. and it's totally amazing how a simple haircut like this could change your whole look.

i'm loving it so far!

death

........................................

to me, is bittersweet.

on one hand, it's a painful goodbye to those who still need you alive on earth.

on the other hand, it's time to say hello to your creator.

either way,it is something unavoidable and inevitable.

somehow,sometime,someday.

it's coming for you.

i freakin love dvd sets!

and i mean it!

i just got my new moon dvd set from borders,and plus the soundtrack for new moon and eclipse. still haven't listened to any of em thou.hehe.i'll have tons of time later.

currently living in front of our dvd player, watching He's Beautiful. I didn't have any second thoughts about the price after i had this weird dream about Jang Geun Suk. i just had to buy the set!and seems like my whole family (except dady dear) is very very happy with my decision. thou i did tell a little white lie to mumy.

told her i borrowed it from a friend.hehe.she would kill me if she knew the truth.*pray pray*

i love holidays.

gonna have a trip to sandakan very soon.can't wait!

cosmo girl

so far so good.

had only one subject,and no final exam paper,just a presentation,which i'm pretty sure i nailed perfectly.hehe.bragging.

i had the cutest lecturer!which made waking up early and going to class easy as pie for me. too bad we only had one month with him.T-T. never mind,the memory of me drooling and ooing and gagaing over him will surely last a lifetime.haha.

small volume of kids in my class.just 20 peeps.some are nicer than the others.i'm sticking with my two lovely roomates thou.since i'm the oldest,i sort of feel like i have the responsibility to protect them.and i do try my best at that.*smile*

the sem is over for now.the real studying starts in september.can't wait~die.

by then i'll be reunited with mr.acer thou,can't wait for my baby to return!

cleaning up!

wheeeew~

seems like i have to clean up the dust on my blog.sorry I've been neglecting this one pleasure i have in my life.

updates on my life coming right up!

ehem..lets pretend there are people interested with my life for one moment k guys.;)

startin over

with my life.

new college,new housemates,new friends,new lecturers.

but still keeping the old ones closer than ever!

this won't be my last night at home,aaah.the beauty of studying close to home.i totally love it.not sure i would've love it a few years back,but since i have had the experience of going away,i've totally learned to appreciate what i've got at home.

so tomorrow,Kota Kinabalu!

xoxo loves.

oh crap~

yeah.

crap crap crap crap.

apparently,google chrome became the death of my blog being unknown from my sisters.and now YOU (witch sisters) know about it.so what?!

ergh.but i can't help but feel violated.my blog is,not pure anymore!this means,i can't talk shit about them very openly from now on.but i'm still not gonna sing praises for ya'll. (i know you guys are reading this:P)

so,to hell with this.i will survive!

gaaaah.

i dunno what to call this post.

i'm just freakin EXCITED!

turns out,i'm startin my studies at cosmo next week on monday!and i'll be livin in a hostel close to 1Borneo.yehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

i think,in a way,studyin in kL kinda helped me prepare for this one a lot.now i'd like to think i'm more mature and less shy about meeting new people.

although, mumy still think i'm childish because of all the pranks i like to pull on my siblings.the farting-in-your-face prank never gets old.haha!

but back to my squeeling.yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i'm restarting my studies!

but most of my stuff are still in KL.especially my Mr.Acer!huhu,but hey,i'll survive.i think.

yeaaaah.i've got lots of uncle's and aunt's living there.hehe.buli pau!!

gosh,still super excited,i can't even think of the right words right now.will update more later peeps.

love love love all of you!

xoxo:)

3 accidents = i suck at driving.

o hell yeah.

lets see, 1st one,a minor fender bender in which i managed to leave my mark on our swanky naza car.sorry for the heart attack mumy.

2nd one, i managed to hit a parked car at the hospital, broke the rear lights and mumy had to pay rm100 as my sogit (and the owner had some seriously cool tattoos eventhou he was the MA.)

and the 3rd one happened a day after my 2nd accident. i reversed the car and hit a house. A HOUSE. well technically its a kedai jahit which belongs to my aunt.but who cares what its called when all i know is, i hit a building. which resulted in a major bingkuk on the storm's bumper.and the bumper is made of steel.STEEL.

somehow my myvi is slipping further and further away from my grasp. my parents are for sure rethinking their decision of buying me a car.and to be honest,i would agree with them wholeheartedly.

i don't wanna hurt anyone with my driving skills.end of story.

i need a personal driver.

xoxo;'(

sleepless nights~

ever since coming home,since i'm used to stayin up late when i was back in kL, i've been the only one still not sleeping at this time.o well,at least i have some privacy updating my beloved blog!

so tonight i'm just gonna rant.i need to!

you see,my mum..is kinda my puppet master for the past few weeks.why?she has given me the hope of getting my own car!but with that comes....a lot of compromising.

Like:-

i've got to do whatever she wants me to do for her (i.e:cabut rambut putih until i go blind!).

make coffee for her (and dad,he's taking advantage of me during my weakest time!and i can tell he's really enjoying it,grr)

help her with her students.(i'm kinda ok with this one thou)

and etc etc.

she also has a new nickname for me : MyVi <---this is the car i'm getting.

but i know my limits,since they're buying it for me,i asked for a 2ndhand car.i know, i'm a saint *puke*.

but really,i never asked for a car,i don't wanna be called a spoiled brat.(thou i am,sometimes.hee~)

but they offered me an irresistable offer.stay in sabah for my studies and get a car or go back to kL with no car.

i guess we all know why i decided to stay now huh.haha.well the car was ONE of the major influencing factor in me deciding to stay.

if they DO buy me a car,oo gosh,i really dunno when or how i'm gonna pay em back.*sigh

anyways,its gonna be a while before it comes true.when it does,i assure you,the whole world will know.haha!

xoxo loves.

eclipse

currently in pain~physically and mentally.

i know i know *rolling eyes* i'm exaggerating a bit.but i really AM in PAIN!

The Twilight Saga:Eclipse has been in the cinema for a few days now,and i'm dying!cuz i need to watch it asap.i've been re-reading all the books over and over and over again which makes the pain even worse!

but currently,i'm trying to watch it online *gasp*.but its reaaaally reaaaally slow and the quality is, lets be honest here,the quality sucks.i just need to watch it NOW!

so,while waiting for the movie to finish loading,i'm updating my page.

the movie starts with Riley?he's kinda cute.

will update again soon.

love.xoxo

i'm baaack sistas!and monkey boy.

doin wat needs to be done at the moment.taking back what's mine!haha

i need my wardrobe back,my own bed,my pillow(my sister stole it and innocently claimed it's hers),and in short,claiming back my reign as vice queen of the house (mumy's the Queen,Her Majesty,dady's the Joker,haha).

so,house cleaning!

funny one

i'm having mixed feelings. everything thats been goin on in my life takes a long time for me to process and absorb.wanna know a story?its one of many factors that made me decide i wanted to stay.

first of all- hahahahaha - this was kinda embarassing for me.

get this. it was late evening and my bud jurul asked to meet up. he wanted to talk about our so called trip to the town (didn't happen btw). so there we were, me,cissy,jurul and jiri. chatting at hasnah (sort of the place we call our lepak spot,ever since high school) and then we got talking about college and stuff.

there was a line jiri said that really hit the soft spot.hahaha.not in a bad or good way.its 50-50.

"siapa de mau sambung blajar jauh2 kalau baru diploma"

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahaha!

me and jurul,of course terasa!!hahahaah

but no hard feelings,if any,it just made me realise the pros of studying at home.so in a way,what jiri said kinda helped me.haha.thanx dude.

xoxo!

catching up~

Got a lot of cathing up to do with you guys.hee~

can't believe i've been mia from my blog for a month! Well,like i said,i'm at home. trying to start over with my life.and ever since my last post, A LOT of things has happened.

so brace yourself cuz this is goin to be a very long post.haha.

so,first thing first.--> Taylor's College.

i know i've been gushing about goin there ever since i went there,but at last,it's not happening. I really wanted to go there but after i came home,it got me thinking. Yeah,there's no doubt its a great school and all,but still its sooooooo expensive.and after all thats happened with my last college and all the money i wasted,i didn't want to burden my parents anymore.huhu.

feeling guilty!

so i decided,i'm staying home then.and my parents totally backed me up with this decision. when i saw how they reacted when i told them i wanted to stay,i know it was the right decision.

still, i'm gonna miss Kuala Lumpur (so cheezy), the amazing group of friends i made, pasar malam that starts reaaally late at night,MIDVALLEY<--huhu,goodbye my love,easy access to movies and bowling;( and a whole lotta thing.

but hey, nothing beats being at home with you loved ones.and i'm savouring every single moments.the good,the bad,the awkward.haha

so moving on~

I turned 19!

my birthday was on the 24th of june.and i had a blast.didn't get to spend a lot of time with my friends thou.they came late!but i don't blame em,cuz they got me amazing gifts,haha.i loove my whinning chicken.and they said it looks just like me.damn you people.haha.but anyways,thanks to everyone for making my birthday wonderful.muahmuah!

and, drum roll please.

my sister is getting engaged to her boyfriend.i know.gasp~

my sister that's not even 18 yet.huhu. but who am i to complaint.its her life.all i can do is be there for her.and i want my one set of white gold accessories because you langkah my bendul lil sista!

they've decided 14th august will be the they she gets engaged.sobs.she's gonna be someone's fiance'!time flies by so quick.

phew.so let me check.taylor's-done.birthday-done.sister-done.what else?owh yeaaaaah.

my top 3 for world cup (south Korea,Brazil and Portugal) totally failed me.urrrrrrrgh. now the netherlands are in the finals.so either germany or spain will meet them. my brain says go for germany but my heart says,TORRES.huhu.eh i mean Spain.we'll see la.i'm not a fanatic anyways.i won't commit suicide if my team loses (rest in peace dude).

so i guess,this covers everything for now. if anything else pops up, i'll be sure to let ya'll know.

hugs and kisses to everyone who still reads my blog.

loves,
enteng
muahmuah

many many things

have happened this past few weeks.sorry i have been neglecting you loves,i just wasn't in the mood to blog.

writer's block~

okay,since my last update,so many things happened.i've already moved out from intan and right now i'm living with gondut.not starting taylor's yet.its commencing in july.(scared)

so in the mean time,i'm goin back to sabah!home sweet home~

but i'm still kinda sad over the fact that i'm not gonna be able to see my miim friends from now on.and i miss my roomate so so bad.but yeah,thank God for facebook!

since today is sunday,meaning,only 3days left before Tambunan!i so can't wait to see my family and friends.i miss them terribly.and i've planned all this exciting trips with my besty!cannot wait i tell ya.

so these are the only updates i have for now,who knows,maybe my next update will be made back home!hehe

toodles loves,
xoxo!

sad times

*sobs*

yeah,totally sad.these are the last few days i'm gonna spend here at intan.next week,buhbye~

dang.gonna miss my hoomies and my roomie so much after this!no more late night gossiping,complaining,outing,movies,bowling and such.huhu!

so,i'm spending as much time as i can here,for now.gonna miss this home.its really been treating me well this past few months.and i still can't believe that i really am moving out soon.

gonna miss our apple-scented room.our dysfunctional aircond.our newly installed astro.<--we just met!sobs~

but no matter what,i'm never gonna forget the amazing friends i've met during my stay here.you guys made my life more colorful with your presence!

thanks for the wonderful memories and someday i hope we all will get what we wanted to achieve together,successful careers!

this is it for now,or else i'm gonna cry.

fill em up!

gaaaaah~

excited.nervous.scared.sad.and a whole lotta feelings.

got my registration form for taylor's already.all i have to do now is fill in the blanks,pay the fee and voila,i'm a taylorian.*breathe*

this feels like its going on so fast.i have to decide when i'm gonna break the news to my roomate.and then move out of the house.which means,another dreaded packing is coming soon.sigh~

and geeeeeeeeez!when i saw the students just now,i was like,WHAT.THE.HELL.most of the students went to class in BMW's.either they were sent by their chauffer,or they drove it themselves.i know~wtf.and don't even get me started on the way they dress.don't.

argh.

now that its coming true,i'm starting to feel scared.but i guess,just gotta endure it.on my own cause i asked for this.i made this decision.and i'm making it happen.

deep, deep breathes teng.deep.

C.N.Blue

just wanted to share my latest loves.

totally am hearting these guys.i mean,who wouldn't fall for guys that sings,plays the guitar and drums?i would!anytime~hee

wheeew.

so,i went to taylor's.

i was half expecting it would be closed on a saturday,and half hoping that it would be open.and yeah,it was closed.

so i'm going this tuesday la with meme.thank God for my young 'parents' here.haha.

and lemme tell ya people,it was HUGE.as in huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge!the campus has its own LAKE for God sake.omaigawd.already i'm excited about the possibility of me going there.

wait~i AM going there.i'm gonna make it happen!yeah!owh and ASH!you reminding me of my dreams about going to Australia,adui!i'm dreaming already,padahal not yet register pun at taylor's,haha.

wheeeee.but i still have a lot of loose ends to tie up back at miim.dang~thou i love taylor's,i'm really gonna miss my miim friends.they're awesome to hang out with.huhu.

and intan apartment.gonna miss my housemates especially my roomie,nad!gonna miss you lots babe.T-T

soi soi~don't jinx anything thats not confirmed yet ba teng!

okay,this is it for now.gonna post more updates later.

xoxo,
enteng.

updates

okay okay moon.your wish is my command ;)

haha.imagine that.people wanting me to update my blog.awww shucks*sobs*

well,,yeah.i have been out of my mind lately.assignments and such.(i'm gonna leave soon but still am doing the assignments,don't i rawk?)

so,tomorrow i'm goin to taylor's university college.i'm hoping they would be open on a saturday.*fingers crossed*cause i just can't wait to get this over with.i wanna confirm everything and then be able to breathe easy.

deep breath teng,deep breath.

owhmaigawd.suddenly feeling nervous.

owh and,i'm in the midst of getting my twilight saga mojo back.been keepin busy with pictures of robsten together.i just love these two people together.amazing!

youtube,be good now why don't cha?

so this is it for now.will absolutely post more updates later on.

p/s:i dedicate this post to moon,thanks for being my loyal reader!love ya lots,muahmuahmuah!

xoxo,
enteng.

bad blood

thats what i'd call family members who rejoice in seeing other family members suffer. cause no matter how much i want them not to be,they are still family.blood family.and that sucks.

its really a pain in my cute ass, seeing and hearing how much suffering they've given to my family.although i'm faraway from home,doesn't mean i'm not feeling the hate given to my family by our own family.

thank God for my mumy's side of the family.we'll never be hurt by them.and i would bet my heart for that.they would never.unlike the other side of my family.

the side that we-shall-not-speak-of-their-name.

we can count on them always being there for happy times.that i can give you.but a hint of trouble in paradise,and they'll be gone faster than you can say adios.

i hate hating on my own family.no matter what,lets face it,they're my blood.but a human can only take that much.make me reach my limit,then buhbye.

all because of one slutty bitch.no,make that,one slutty brainless jealous bitch.sorry,but yeah,you're a big time bitch.i feel sorry for my mumy for feeling sorry for you all those time.for helping you out when in the end,you're the one stabbing her back.

you ungrateful bitch. :)

i've been planning revenge over and over in my head,thinking of how i would make them pay for what they did.it's been commencing in my head.haha~but lets face it,if i get my revenge,i'll be just the same as they are.and i won't let myself fall to their standards.its a very very low standard.

and my parents,my siblings and i are better than that.we won't stoop low like they did.

so,we forgive but we won't forget.ever.

end of story.

you are so cool

:)

NOT.

found one blog.in a way it is super cool.but in another way it is too much of a show off.or maybe i'm just jealous.naa~

annoying.yes,thats the word.you are not cool.just annoying.

owh yaa:-

Don't mess with me when Aunty Flow is in town.but anyways,enjoy the roller coaster ride i call, my moodswings.

is that....?

no,it's not the light i see.

i'm still in darkness.total utter darkness.but at least i'm making an effort to walk.one slow step at a time.yeah.

thank you God.

for making me able to hold on this long.for giving me such great parents who want nothing but me to be happy.amazing friends who always have my back.i can't thank You enough.

i still can't see where my road will lead me to,but i have a feeling,soon.

i wanna type on that smiley face now,

:)

xoxo,
enteng.

Lost

i really am.

dear God,is this really a test for me?cause if it is,i have a feeling i'm gonna fail terribly.i really don't know how i'm gonna get through this.i really don't.

college

is a never-ending nightmare.and its getting worse.please.i've wasted a year and a half.don't make it not worth anything.the times i've spent there.please don't do this to us.please.

i'm feeling the urge to cry a lot these days.especially after what mumy told me and asked me to do.i feel,i'm a huge dissapointment and a huge failure to them.my parents.

tell me what to do cause i really don't have a clue.none at all.yeah,i've got my license already but i still don't know where to drive to,besides,the road is getting foggier.

(its no time for jokes,but i just can't help it)and yeah,i passed my 2nd JPJ test.i wanna type on the smiley face but i'm just not in the mood to smile these days.

i.just.can't.take.this.test.

but God,gimme the strengh i need.gimme the will and faith.gimme the power to succeed.

i need a good long cry.but i'm soo tired i can't even sob.really really lost.this bump in the road has suddenly become a huge hill that seems impossible to overtake.

show me some signs.shed me some light.i'm walking like a blind person here God.and i'm sorry all i can do is complain.You must be tired of hearing me whine.

i'll try to do everything in my power.i'll do whatever i can.that i will.

and mumy,happy mother's day.

someday,i will make you proud.
someday,i will succeed.
someday,all this would be a thing of the past.

someday.....not now for sure.

xoxo,
enteng.

mellow me

aaaaaaaah~

after a few days (and a few posts) of being an angry teenage soul,since i've let it all out from my system,i'm back to being mellow me.

soft,sensitive,sentimental,kind-hearted (ok,i'm exaggerating here) in other words,jiwang me is back.and with the jiwangness,comes jiwang posts.haha~

its already the month of may.my bestfriend cissy will be celebrating her 20th birthday soon. you'll be leaving the teenage world soon besty!wish i was there to celebrate with her.

since most of my friends and the people that i know are going back home to sabah for their holidays,i'm feeling kinda left out here.i am missing home terribly.this past few days i've been having dreams about my beloved family.

one dream i had was about little monkey.i was so scared that he was growing up and i'm not there to witness it.i miss him!

another one was about my aki purutan.in that dream,he was able to walk and talk again.(he's paralyzed and unable to talk anymore btw).he was asking me to make him coffee like he used to do when he was still able to walk and talk.gosh~i'm tearing up just thinking bout him.

it used to be me taking care of him before i came here.so i kinda had this special bond with him. i'm the type of girl that rarely show the crying me in public.but when i was leaving for KL,i couldn't care less.i was bawling my hearts out while saying goodbye to my grandparents.both sets.

i guess,i'm one of the few lucky ones that still has both sets of grandparents alive.

all four of them have a special place in my heart.i could never say no to their wishes.argh. i miss them.i miss having breakfast with ama purutan.going to the tamu with nene lintuhun. having coffee with aki lintuhun and making coffee for aki purutan.

i guess i'm homesick.

and i have no idea when i'll be able to go home.not anytime soon for sure.

Lord,take good care of my family will you?i love them.

xoxo,
enteng

IMY dude.

sometimes,being alone in my room makes me realise,i AM alone.
moments like this,makes me,emotional and suddenly missing alot of things.



like right now,



i miss - holding hands with you

i miss - laughing at jokes thats not even funny,but i laugh anyway cause the way you're trying to make me laugh is so cute.

i miss - having you to talk to when i can't share it with my girlfriends.

i miss - getting a warm hug,ensuring me not everything in this world sucks.

i miss - our relationship.however imperfect it was.

i miss - my mom and dad making you nervous:)

i miss - knowing that i have you,thinking of me.

i miss - the memories we made.the ones only we know.

i miss - your smile.

and..

i miss you.i miss us.

eventhough its different now,eventhough i've moved on,there's nothing wrong in missing the happier moments right?

i would never regret meeting you,being with you and breaking up with you.it's made me who i am today.and i thank you for that.

and we both know,you'll always have a special place in my heart.always dude.

years from now,when we're older,i hope we can look back and say "dude,we made a good looking couple".

again,i miss you dude.

xoxo,
enteng.

blank page

i'm feeling really lost.

really really lost.

college seems like a joke to me now.like,there's no point at all goin to that place.and like i mentioned earlier,the management is a joke.and not a funny one either.~

show me the way o' mighty Lord.show me the freakin way.make the foggy road clear again.

mungkin ini cabaran.a bump in the road.but seriously,saya masih pakai lesen L ba God,belum lulus lagi lesen P.so sekarang,i'm stuck in the middle of the road.not knowing what to do,how to get over this bump.

and yes.i am aware that most of my post nowadays are really emo-ish and filled with cursing.but i am only human.haha.the least i can do is curse rite.better then i go and simbah asid di muka orang2 yang berkenaan itu.

tulun-tulun irad diolo nopo nga, a nuisance.au koilo momonsoi karaja,ingga tanggungjawab.mau cakap ingga tutok,haro be da.nga better they sell that brain for scientist to experiment on. monusa hidup tulun nopo ngai.~

but i can feel my anger simmering down.after (this is embarassing to admit) i cried while talking with mumy over the phone,i feel so much better.not totally 100% okay,but better than i was before i told em every single thing.

so now,i'm waiting by the road side,hoping i'll be able to figure out a way to get over this bump.

:)

xoxo,
enteng

go fcuk urself!

seriously.

my patience has a limit.mess with me,and i'll give you shit!

what the fuck fucking fuck do you guys do everyday in that fucking office?lemme guess,play farmville all day long?then what the fuck are you even doing coming to work?better stay at home you!mother fucking shits!!!

yeaaah,when it comes to $$$$$$ its all sweet talking.but when it comes to our needs,we get treated like crap!what are we?trash?we pay you!!and when we're not able to,haaaaaH.

my dad keeps calling the office,and no one bothers to pick up the phone.no ONE,and i mean NO FREAKING ONE treats my parent that way.i'm sick of being nice all the time to all you two-faced two-timers who eats and breathes $$$$$$!!

seriously.seriously?yeah,seriously.freaking fuckers.

everything has a limit,and i'm waaay pass that limit.

one thing that really pisses me off,treat me like crap,i'll try my best to ignore you,but treat my PARENTS like crap,then o HELL no bitches!!thats like asking God to shorten your life!

my gorgeous sister!

ain't she pretty?that's my sister shanty.

sabah is well known for having pesta kaamatan every year.the celebration actually starts long before 31st of may comes.any kaamatan will not be the same without Unduk Ngadau, a beauty pageant where the prettiest of them all is chosen as the Ratu.

this year,my sister joined.and as you can see from the pictures,she is gorgeous!thou she only got 3rd place and not the crown,but considering this is her first time joining this pageant,thats quite an achievement.and she'll be going to the district level Unduk Ngadau!so sad i won't be there in person to cheer her on..sobs~

try your best at district level sista!make me proud!!:)

i'm trying

very hard to put on a :) face.

no wonder i wish i lived in movies (except zombie movies).my life...well i'm not gonna say sucks cuz there are things in my life that i really love like my family and friends,just that,i'm actually a very pessimistic person.i see the glass as half empty,and i would do anything to make sure it gets filled up to the top.

yeahs~i'm a negative thinker.but i'm actually trying very hard to be a positive thinker.but lets just say,optimism is not my forte.i would always assume the worst and predict failure even before i get started.for instance,my coming jpj test.i'm thinking and predicting that i'm somehow gonna mess the whole thing up and fail miserably.

but i'm trying to be positive.at least if i do fail,its not gonna be the end of the world,yet?i can try again.which i really don't want to since i really don't wanna have anything to do with the metro driving academy anymore!

fuhhhhh~

and i think thats why i'm a movie junkie.and i day dream alot!most of the day i spend daydreaming.sad,i know.thats me.

naaa~who cares anyways.everyone just cares about themselves.

me included :)

xoxo,
enteng

trouble?

went to college today.first day of the new semester and class was cancelled.yeah,great~

ergh.and not to mention.the management really sucks.i mean.i really really absolutely need my results in order to get my cheque from yayasan.but they keep postponing.i keep getting the same anwers over and over.fucking shit!!my patience has a limit.

i just.don't know what to tell my parents.really don't have any excuses left.

right now.my future looks like a really foggy road,where you can't see anything even if you turn the hazard lights on.

breathe teng<-------resisting the urge to curse and rant some more.fuckkkkkkkk!!!(thats the last one,i hope)

but,how can i not be angry when,we asked for our time table,but their response was "saya x buat.malas.jahat kan saya"go eat sh*t laaaaa.i mean,if they were busy with their job,i don't mind waiting.but when i heard em say 'boleh beli kandang laa"..thats when i knew,what job?they're busy playing farmville on facebook!FACEBOOK!waargh.what kinda people are you??

i know i'm jeopardizing my self here by publicly condemning them.but i don't care!what?they're gonna sue me if they read this?kiss my ass laaa.i don't care.ergh.

gonna go to bed with this outta my head and mind and heart and whatever place i still have left in my body.

xoxo bitches!

monkey boy turns 10!

yeah~ that's monkey boy! can't believe he's all grown up.

gosh!i miss torturing his sorry little ass!haha. still,its 10 years already?

called home just now.well actually,i missed called,and then mumy called me back.hey,jimat credit maa~hehe.talked a bit with monkey boy.one thing i always ask him to do whenever i talk with him is to spell things.haha.he's doing better,thou sometimes he still asks mumy for help.he thinks just because he's whispering i can't hear him through the phone.haha!he's growing up so fast,sobs~

i miss the moments when he was still a baby.back then,he wasn't much of a nuisance.but the moment he was able to walk and talk,life as i knew it,changed forever.haha.we really don't go along well but ever since i came here,i started realising how boring life is without him and (gasp!) i miss him so bad!huhu~

well,happy birthday little brother!your big sister misses you soo much and i'll give you your present when i'm home,mmmuuuuaaah!

p/s:i doubt he'll be able to understand this.haha!

pak guard

okay.fuhhhhhhhhhh~

hahahaha.

just now,went out to get some food with syah.and then she said,lets go see some rich people's house.and i was like,yeah let's!so we went to puncak setiawangsa where all the people had a minimum 3 storey house (wtf!rite).one house even looked like a 5 star hotel on the english countryside (again,wtf!rite).swimming pools,expensive sports car,all were so overwhelming to see.and we were having a good time drooling over the houses.

that was until.......

the park guard from hell shouted at us.and trust me,he really was shouting!he was like, "WOOOOOI!"..then we reluctantly went to the guard house.syah did all the talking since that dude was speakin in the utara slang.he was like "who let you in?what are you doing here?" and then syah was like "jalan-jalan ambil angin je laa" and he said "jalan ni bapa hang punya ka". and then what really pissed me off was,he said "jalan-jalan pastu g merokok". we were like WTF dude.now that was..grrr!

i mean,come on.it wasn't like we were there to break into any of the houses.stupid.since i was so angry after he made that smoking comment,i couldn't hear a thing he said afterwards.i heard his voice but nothing made sense cuz i was so hot inside.

blerkkkk~i know he was just doing his job.but there was no need to be that rude.dang.whatever happened to malaysian hospitality?bullshit i tell ya,bullshit!

phewwww..i bet,if we were driving a mercedes or ferrari instead of riding the motorcycle,he would've been all soft and nice with us.typical.huh~


hope you have a great life mr.pak guard!

enteng.

genting

wow.thank god i didn't choose small.medium is already this small.haha.

thank you for the awesome day guys!xoxo

before semester starts!

went to getting yesterday.wanted to enjoy watever moments we have left before the new semester starts.yeap~i have a feeling this sem is gonna be the hardest semester ever!

we'll be having single camera production (SCP), audio,mixing and dubbing 1, and scrriptwriting 2.gasp! SCP was the nightmare of our seniors.and i'm sure its gonna be hell for all of us soon.

anyways,back to my trip.(trying to feel positive here people) went to genting with syah and wan. just the three of us,but still had tons of fun. but,i'm promising to myself,when class starts,i won't let myself have too much fun. gotta concentrate on my priorities.STUDY comes first!

the rides were super fun!went on the solero,corkscrew and the flying coaster!and left with no harm done.really,it wasn't as terrifying as i thought it would be.

little did i know,when i stepped into the cute purple ribena cups (the ride that was meant for kiddos since it looks harmless (my ass)),,it was going to be the death of me. Got out of the ride barely walking straight and feeling dizzy like an elephant just kicked my head!and the rest of the day i spent trying to hold my stomach and not throw up.

but nonetheless,yesterday was fun and i had a blast hanging out with my friends.here's to kicking off the new sem with super renewed spirits!

picture's coming very soon!

xoxo,
enteng

FEED

okay..i need a moment to gather my thoughts.

i just finished watching a very disturbing,disgusting,gross,barfing, and what ever disgusted words there is, movie called FEED.

its about a serial killer who feeds his victims to death!yeap.he fills em up with junk food and also with fat he carved out from his previous victim.yes.he feeds his victim with fats from dead bodies. it was white and yukky and he added eggs to it.omaigawd.i've never watched a movie where i wanted to barf soo many times!

so there was this cop that tried to take him down,but instead in the end this cop got lost in the mind game that the killer has made,and he became just like the killer.but vice versa.he makes them starve.omg.you guys google it.i just can't talk more about this movie.it was directed by Brett Leonard.

the most disgusting movie i have ever watched.should've stop after i saw the first scene.now,i am forever traumatized.staying away from junk food!!!!mark my words,i am so not eating those food again!!!

omaigawd.i am not the same person anymore.

enteng

wants and needs

i'm so bored~

right now,i'm having a tough time deciding a life and death matter.

to order or not to order?

pizza hut or domino?

argh.wants and needs teng.remember!

ordering them will burn a seriously huge hole in your seriously tiny pocket.

so,i won't then!(sorry stomach,guess you'll have to settle with bread and chocolate milk then)

looking at the bright side,diet-wise,this is good.no pizza,no fast food.good good!

but deep down,crying like hell broke loose.cravings are soo hard to curve,but i gotta try!i have too!!

lapar makanan sedap..T-T

xoxo,
enteng

why Bi why!

tears~

so currently watching Rain's (Bi) comeback on youtube.missed him but~

he looks so damn gay!

why Bi why! why did you agreed with your stylist to put on those fake lashes!!they made you look so gay!!

T.T ~ those chocolate abs are mighty fineeeeeeeeee,but ruined by some fake lashes!

crying my hearts out (not really but i'm allowed to be overly dramatic here right?) watching him!he still has those slick dance moves that made me go gaga for him years ago.but i still can't get over those lashes!!

but no matter-i will always have a special place for you in my heart Bi.forever!!

xoxo,
enteng

God loves him more.

this morning,i woke up to the sound of my phone ringing.it was my mum.

it felt odd.its a friday.and she never calls this early on a weekday since she has to go to work.as if she knew the oddness that i felt,she said in a teary voice "uncle ito suda meninggal".that sure did woke me up.i was shocked.he suffered a stroke,the same damn thing that killed my beloved uncle pius 3 years ago.(has it really been 3 years?felt like it was last year,and i never really got over the fact that he passed away,still feels like he's away on a super long vacation..~)

he was a man of wisdom.many things were referred to him,many family problems was solved thanks to him.and now,he is no more.rest in peace uncle.

the death of someone we know,always reminds us that we are still alive,perhaps for some purpose which we ought to re-examine.

yeah.another reason for all of us to cherish the moment while we still can.

rest in peace uncle ito.
our aramaiti's won't be the same without you.at least,now uncle pius has a friend to talk with.

xoxo,
enteng.

LOBO

meaning~wolf

yeah.it's been a long time since i last became obsessed with a tagalog teleseries.and the long wait was worth it.she wolf!

i know it sounds funny and cheezy at the same time but trust me,you won't be laughing when you see the hotness and gorgeousness in the form of PIOLO PASCUAL!i mean,dang! he is smoking hot.haha.

and cutie pie,philipines brightest jewel ANGEL LOCSIN stars opposite piolo in this one.she is so pretty,it really is unfair to all of us normal looking girl (me especially).

anyways,piolo is so perfect,i'm scared to even say this,but please don't be gay!us girls need you more than the gayfrends out there!we need men like you to be straight piolo!this is a matter of life and death!(okay fine,i'm exaggerating a bit here)

but yeah,perfect looking guys are either taken or gay.what a sad life we live in huh.but piolo is a single dad,but so is ricky martin.dang.please have a girlfriend hottie,it'll give us hope that at least your not gay eventhough that girlfriend is not me.<----don't mind me.i always say things that doesn't make sense when it comes to hot men.and piolo is smokin!

haha.so,currently obsessed with lobo.thank you Lord for the invention of youtube!!

just needed to get this off my chest.phew..i can breathe easy and stop shaking now.haha.

xoxo,
enteng pascual.
(wah!!!!sesuai!since enteng is also a filipino name,muahahaha!)

life just isn't fair

yeah~

when i see multi-talented people (my latest obsession is youtube) i feel so..sick.

sick with jealousy that is.haha.

it hurts to be us (the non-talented,normal people) especially knowing that our whole life, we're gonna be looking at these wonderfully gifted people from the audience seat.sobs~

hey, i'm being very tipical here.well, i AM human.a normal one.jealousy is inevitable when your human,and talentless,and so much more.haha.

o well..if everyone was multi-talented,then who will be left to be the audience that needs to be entertained huh?i guess,thats my talent then.haha.sobs~

xoxo peeps,
enteng.

p/s:untalented people unite!we should have our own fan club.haha.sobs~

huh?

like huh?~

it's funny when someone waaay older than you act so very childish.funny AND annoying.

you're about to be married,and you have a job thats respected by society,and yet the way you display your self (on facebook of course) makes you look equivalent to a high schooler who's battling hormones.

i'm sorry.i may not know you personally (facebook makes me feel like i know everyone these days) but from my point of view,the way you act is very childish.omaigawd.haha.

just had to get these off my chest.

xoxo,
enteng!

i love HIM more.

He loved and died

when He was being beaten and spat upon

when His flesh was being torn by the whip

when His back was scourged

then He saw me being baptized

and so He permitted them to do so.

when the crown was crushed into His head

when He tasted His own blood

when the thorns pierced His flesh

then He saw me praying

and so He killed them not.

when His cross was so heavy that He fell

when He carried wood on His torn flesh

when He wished simply to move no more

then He saw me in confession

and so He got up and walked on.

when His hands were being pierced

when He hung from a cross

when His side was bleeding

then He said I love YOU

and so He died.

dear Jesus,xoxo!

yehaw!

the thing is, i don't know how to stop.

i know i always end up getting hurt.

but i don't care,no,not anymore.

cause i'm strong baby!

so keep the critics coming in.

cause what doesn't kill me makes me stronger.

hell yeah.

xoxo!

picca's

fun and fun fun with cousin metot.sorry there's not much to show,we didn't take as many pictures as we wanted cuz we weren't in the mood for picca time.haha:)

lovely days

yeah,totally had an awesomely lovely day yesterday with cousin metot.

we went bowling and each game was rm5 only!if only i had my student id with me,then it would've been only rm3.50!dang,not my luck maybe.but still,it was fun!

had lunch at kenny roger's.nyumm.officially my favourite restaurant for the time being.i was full for the rest of the day!and those vannila home made muffins are to die for!

after that,we went window shopping.well,i did,she went shopping for real.haha.all i could do was watch.but yeah,i've done enough shopping.keperluan dan kehendak teng,remember that!

and then laura called.she wanted to pick some pictures up at wangsa maju and i thought, what the heck,a chance to show cousin metot my journey going back to intan.and so we went and met up with laura at kL sentral.rainy days.hot, wet and sticky!!hate that.

so,we got the pictures.btw it was her graduation pics with her boyfie,hehe.so sweet!and then we got back to sentral and said our goodbyes and hugged out.jumpa di kampung!

so metot and i went back home to gondut's.it was a long,tiring but fun day.pictures comin soon.

xoxo,
enteng!

i'm seeing double?

hahaha.so currently i'm checking out a few of my friends blogs and get this, cc and miki have the same blog template!hahahahahahhaha!LOL indeed!

i don't know bout you guys,but in the fashion world,wearing the same outfit is a major no-no,a faux pas!!haha.so what does having the same blog template means?you girls sort this out yah,i just needed to get this of my chest,laughing so hard!

xoxo,
enteng!

btw,if it were me,i'd change my layout a.s.a.p!

bonding time!

so okay,my cousin metot came down to KL all the way from melaka.yay!

she came last sunday and then we went straight to lowyat to buy her laptop.one week with my cousin!

the last time she came,i wasn't able to spend time with her since i was working at kLcc. Now that i'm full time student again,haha,i have tons of time to spend with her.

so yesterday,we chilled at home,played around with her new laptop (i love new shiny stuff) and watched tv all day.today was a whole different story.

we went to mid valley (which btw is my favorite place to hang at) and at first we were only going to watch one movie (how to train a dragon,which was great!) but instead, we watched two (under the mountain, which btw,was not so great).and get this,i promised my self i would not buy ANYTHING but alas,FOS got to me.well,actually we paid tong2 la for two shirts.it was two for the price of one!no girl can resist that offer right?hehe.

so,today was fun.and tomorrow,hehe,we're goin bowling at times square!cannot wait for tomorrow to come.

xoxo,
enteng.

i love sam!

yeah.my first local crush!haha.

i mean,whats not to like?he is sooo..sempoi!just watched him in evolusi kL drift 2.and he acted with this funny chinese-trying-to-speak-malay accent!LU MEMANG LANGSI!haha.

from bohsia,to adnan sempit,and then niyang rapik,after that asmaradana and now kL drift,i'm liking him even more each time i see him act.haha.who would've thought i'd have a crush on a local actor!he's cute!haha.okay for now,can't wait to see more of his movies!

haha,
enteng.

rants

when boredom sets in,even death seems exciting.yeap~

i had huge hopes of making this holiday exciting,but alas,what ever plans i made,they have to wait.fate has other plans for me. <---- thats me trying to console my heart.

why does every single thing here have to cost money?i know,tu es mui stupido for asking such stupid question teng.

even going back home to sabah cost money.(like DuH!).haish.moments like these i hate.when money is the problem.me and money.frenemies.love em when i have lots around.but hate when they're not within my graps.its a love hate relaysh actually.

can't live with and can't live without em.am i right or am i right.

on a more lighter note,gondut is maybe taking us to the movies tonight.but the thing is,he wants to watch KL Drift.ergh.i hate malay movies that revovles around rempits or drifters.but since this one has got shaheizy sam (love!) in it,then i'll give it a shot.well,malaysia boleh la kan.

i'm not gonna go all emo freak on ya'll.have a great day everyone.

xoxo,
enteng.

postponing

sad.i had so much hope that this would be an awesome holiday.but,i have to postpone my trips to make way for important stuff like getting my driving license.

haish~but just my luck.getting that gete intsructor.dang it.i was suppose to enjoy my lessons,not feel uneasy all the time.

God have mercy.let me finish this as quickly as possible.

so,currently gaining weight at gondut's.bored as hell but better i'm staying at home than wasting money goin out rite?(i keep telling myself that to feel better T.T )

well,can't wait until cousin metot comes from melaka.we're goin laptop shopping at lowyat, and i really crave going to redbox!!my inner beyonce can't wait to get out.and she only comes out at redbox.singin take a bow.hahaha.

well,this is it for now.until next time.when i'm bored and got nothing much to do.i'll update my posts.haha

xoxo,
enteng!

Ulu Yam Trip!

i love everyone in these pictures!

yeaaaah.so last thursday we went to ulu yam waterfall.FINALLY!after a few sems of planning on doing some group gathering,we finally made one happen and it was very happening!

gosh.it was really a lotta fun and we got some amaaaaaaaazing pictures taken by our resident photogs.(really talented u guys!).those 3 pics are mere fractions of the pics we took that day.pheeeew.what a trip.love love loved it!

here's to more trips in the future.next up on our list..ISLAND CAMPING!yeah!

love and love and lots of love,

enteng.

i rawk!

yeaah.turns out,i wasn't completely naked when i answered my exam paper today.haha.i had my cloths on!(meaning:i do have a brain!)

so happy scriptwritting is done.now left with media societ.gosh.its harder i think.with the teories and so on.

aaaah.life.there are moments that i love,after all.

xoxo,
enteng!

falling

i think i'm falling in love.again~

i think i'm in love with Jerry Yan+Ella Chen.haha.gotcha didn't i?
so,yeah.it's confirmed.Down With Love is my latest obsession.

what a cute couple!!you guys should see them together.not just in the drama but during interviews.i've never seen jerry this laid back before.ella is one helluva sunshine huh?soo happy for them both!

and yeah.i WISH they were dating in real life.i really do.haha.why am i always like this?lifeless~

but,i don't really care much rite now.i just wanna enjoy my time on earth!

but really,i should be studying rite now.exam is tomorrow and i'm here,updating my blog.drooling over the cuteness that is jerry+ella.haha.

well,so much for getting a life.here's to jerry and ella,dating in real life!!chaiyo!

muahmuahmuah,
enteng

Bradley Cooper was GAY!

it was a shocker!trust me~ i was shocked.

but yeah,of course it was only in the movie,and his partner was McSteamy!talk about when two HOTstuff collide.

yesterday was fun.found out the Garden had GSC Signature.heard there were few people there.and so we went.and so we found out why few people go there.a normal ticket that would cost you RM12,cost double.haha.safe to say,we went straight back to midvalley and bought our RM12 tickets for Valentine's Day.which was paid by Billi!!thanx dude.hehe.

had lunch at pizza hut.the new pizza tasted like spaghetti,yumm but the crust was hard to cut with the knife.we also saw this play that was being held at the centre court.

Alice in Wonderland!

it was cool.too bad it wasn't the REAL johnny depp.haha~see the pictures?i looooooove those!

can't wait till i meet you guys for our next movie date!

lots and lots of love,

enteng.

i feel happy

okay so,tomorrow is my second date with miki.i miss her terribly!i cannot wait for tomorrow!

one more assignment to go.then we're done.and final exam papers.time flies by so fast,thou i felt like i was dragging my feet along.time feels so slow yet it comes so fast,blink and then you'll miss it.

what was that?haha.rants from the useless girl.

cop!this was suppose to be a cheerful post la teng~

pardon my emo-ness.its somewhat a habit now.haha.

so,yeah..really can't wait to see miki tomorrow.and did i mention,BILI was coming along?haha.
that little elf (hahaha) is goin to take pictures for us.yeaaah.

excited excited excited!

muahmuahmuah,
enteng:)

someday somehow

i wanna be somebody someday.not just anybody,but somebody.

mood swings alert!

i just watched the time traveler's wife.totally cried.and yes,i'm not ashamed of that.it's a movie worth crying for.and..daanggggg..that eric bana is one smoking hot dude!sigh~

me and hot men ~ inseparable.i like!haha

watching love movies makes me wish i had my own love life.but just sometimes laa.
most of the time,i'm happy being single.for now,i can truly say i really am happy being alone.at the moment.

my sister just got her spm results.she called me.crying~

i'm guessing you know why she cried?yeah.it wasn't good.poor her.can't really blame her for that.but actually,i still think,if only she...hmm~nevermind laa.it's too late for all this talk now. what's done is done.no turning back.(if only i could time travel.haha)

her crying over the phone made me realize something.what if someday,i was in her shoes? argh.with my current situation,i really don't know if i'll be able to make my parents happy..and proud~i am seriously doubting myself.and my abilities.

please God..make me a journalist?a successful one?thats the least i can do.

i know.they probably wanted me to be a doctor,lawyer,engineer or at least even a teacher.they deny it,but i know.deep down,that's what they would've wanted me to be.

sorry mumy.sorry dady.i'm a useless daughter.i really am.

sometimes i wish i wasn't the first.if i were the 2nd daughter,i would've had someone to look up too.i would've known what to do and what not to.instead,i'm the one having to set up an example for my siblings.and i'm a very awfull role model for them.if only i had a choice.

maybe.i'm responsible for her failure?i think i'm somewhat,the one to blame.growing up,i was never a good sister to them.not even decent.regrets~it's too late now teng.the damage has been done.

maybe.she has something else planned for her,by God.maybe.i hardly say this,actually never, but i love them.and all i want for them is to be happy and successful with their lives.and not follow in my footsteps.don't.

sigh~
the useless one in the family.